A short story about financial fears and aspirations.
You are not alone (In financial fears)
by masscashteam | on November 8, 2012
Do you ever feel like you have a black cloud following you around? No matter what you do it seems there’s a financial problem here or personal drama there. Does it always feel like your life is repeating the same old patterns that have failed countless times before? I know the constant negative nagging that creeps up into your psyche, the persistent worry that there may be more bill at the end of the month than income. Well, my friends, you are not alone. I too, along with countless others, have found ourselves in the dredge of life’s heart hardening pitfalls.
You keep pushing yourself up this invisible hill that keeps getting steeper and higher. I know that journey. I live it daily. I’m always trying my damnedest to keep a positive attitude and work hard and keep on keepin’ on. Well, I feel like I’m almost ready to give up and this fake ass smile I wear is starting to crack. I feel like I’ve given 210% to better my life and I’ve really just screwed myself in the end by wearing myself out physically, spiritually and mentally. I work a dead end job from 7am to 2pm, 5 days a week and I know the truth. I know the cold hard truth, the truth is, I know that I’m not getting anywhere but more in debt. I know that my chances for advancement are slim to none. The company I work for doesn’t care about how many bills I have or how many people depend on me for financial and emotional support. I’m just a statistic and another anonymous name on a paycheck.
I’ve gone as far as spending countless hours online after a hard day at work, just searching for an answer. An answer to a question I don’t even have the words to even speak. I can’t even put into words what I’m feeling or experiencing in this year of 2012. It’s not my parents or grandparents world anymore. Our American dream is fading into an American nightmare. We are losing hope day by day and I want to believe again. I want to believe in my country and feel that I have a chance creating and nurturing my dream of owning my own business. I know I don’t want to continue on the same bullshit path that has gotten me nowhere so far. I want to live my life, not work it away and die some bitter old woman that resented her life because she was working herself to death. I want joy and happiness. I want financial stability. I want peace of mind and I want to get up every morning with a sincere smile on my face because I am living my life for me. I’m working for me, doing what I love and making a living doing it, not making a deeper pile of debt just by trying to build a successful business.
I feel like I’ve found the place where I’m supposed to be. I feel so inspired and so motivated to make this my last stop on this crazy train. I have found this great opportunity and I want to share it with everyone that is at the same crossroads I have journeyed to.
You are not alone.
I am here with you, holding my box of dreams and aspirations right along side each and everyone of you.
Published in: Personal Finance